I'm hoping to start a series of posts which is entitled BLEAU WATERS. It will be about my reflections, my devotional and my conversations with God. I'm not sure if it's right that I post it here, but I'm just doing what I'm being lead to do. I know that I haven't been the best person lately or actually at any time at that, but I'm praying that this series of posts would lead me to a better state of mind, a better state of being. I am still going to be me, but hopefully more
focused.
I'm not sure even if my desire to write this is totally noble, but I'm praying again that it leads to that. I've never been the most reliable person, so even now I'm not sure if there's going to be a second post. I just wanted this to be aired out, I err a lot - human as I am, I have to accept that and find ways to improve myself. And to make better oneself is not to trust in your own actions but to trust Him that knows you more.
I noticed that as I started this post I've been using a lot of I's, making me sound so selfish, and it seems that it's not letting out soon. I'm wanting (again with the I) to make this more about Him and less about me. I decrease He increase(I think I'm rephrasing Paul) is hopefully the intention. Spiritually, emotionally, physically, socially, financially and all the families of "lys" have been suffering in me, I think it's time to let go and release it to someone more capable to manage it. The more that I tried to hold on to things, the more it slips away. I've been worrying a lot lately, I worry again about all the families of "lys" stated above, as well as worrying about worrying then I realized what I've know before and have just forgotten, my God is a big God why worry? He is capable of anything and everything, and he promised us a good plan, all we have to do is wait for His perfect timing.
Here I am Lord waiting... are we there yet?... how about now?... are we there yet?... Teach me patience O Lord. I guess I am still going to be me but praying over time that I'll be a better me... one molded by His hands to the person he wants me to be. Amen/So be it!
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